Story Time – Ubadō

Quick heads up: This (rather long) story contains some implied darkness involving pregnancy/babies. Nothing graphic.

He guided the car down a broad road. She stared idly out at the passing scenery. The car wound across a plateau dotted with pale projections of limestone, like stone fingers grasping at the sky.

“That was a nice museum,” He said. Silence made Him nervous. Made Him fear that She was growing tired of him.

“Yeah. I just wish I could have understood anything.”

“Sorry. I should have guessed they wouldn’t have English signs. Not that I could read them that well, either.”

“It’s OK. The exhibits were cool. That Jomon pottery blew my mind. It makes things feel a bit more real, you know, how people have been doing the same stuf here for so long.”

“Yeah. That’s what I love about it. You can see this unbroken line going back thousands of years..”

They descended from the plateau into wooded lowlands, turning onto country roads through tiny clusters of houses barely identifiable as towns. He settled a bit as the road straightened and widened.

“All that time. I wonder what else is left behind. Have you ever thought about if people can leave a mark on places? Kind of like a fingerprint, but more… Emotional.”

“A psychic imprint, or something? Like in the Shining?”

“When you put it like that, it makes it sound kind of crazy.”

“No, I don’t mean it like that. I agree, actually. I’ve been to places where bad stuff happened, really bad stuff, and I swear I could feel it. It was terrible.”

“Oh, yeah. You used to live in Germany, didn’t you?”

He didn’t answer.

They drove slowly under the spreading shade trees until He—driving and nervous about the left-sidedness of it all—sighed in relief at the sight of a sign reading “Ubadō Cave” underneath more Japanese text.

“There it is,” He said and She—tired, slightly bored, but happy to be away from the crowds in Kyoto and Tokyo—said “Well navigated, Ensign.”

She aimed her phone at a passing building. “I’m not sure I trust Google translate. It says that place has ‘electron baths’ which surely isn’t a thing, right?”

“Distrusting Google is generally a good stance to take,” He said.

“It says this place is called ‘theft cave.’ Like a JRPG setting or something. Is that right?”

“I mean, what did I just say about trusting Google? But maybe. Hard to tell what it actually means without the Chinese characters. They just use kana on the sign.”

“You think the thieves left anything behind? Like a treasure trove in there somewhere?”

“We shall soon see.”

He turned the car into an empty parking lot and stopped beside a small, wooden building that looked to be a public toilet. Beyond was a wide grassy space with wooden swing sets and a jungle gym.

She said, “This just looks like a park. Do they have caves in parks?”

He said, “It is a park, but I think they put the park outside the cave. Not the other way around.”

“Makes sense.”

“This is going to be fun. Don’t you think?” He said. He fidgeted, running His right index finger in a circle around His thumb like He always did when He was nervous. She knew He thought She was just humoring him. Going along. That She wanted to do other things but was keeping quiet for His sake. He was wrong, but She kind of liked the careful way He was looking at Her now.

“The blogs I read about this place all said it’s a really easy walk to the exploration part at the end. It’s a little tight and dark after that, but not ‘Ted the Caver’ tight. Not getting-trapped-in-the-dark tight. What do you think? Are you OK with that? Not, you know…” He trailed off.

“I’m OK,” She said.

“Cool,” He said, relief clear in his voice.

They stepped out into the steaming air of the Japanese summer. A storm a couple of days before had brought short-lived relief, but now all that rain had turned into humidity that made even just breathing a misery. She found herself looking forward to the cave, which would surely be cooler than this.

The sound of cicadas was deafening. The small trees planted alongside the parking lot were filled with their squat, thumblike bodies, squirming over each other as they fought to send out their harsh calls, occasionally dislodging rivals which would fly off to another nearby tree with an annoyed buzz. She shuddered slightly at the sight and sound.

They walked through the park and followed the signs pointing the way to the cave. There was a small building of wood outside the entrance, with a glassed in ticket desk. He went over to try to get tickets using his third-year Japanese and a dictionary app. He staunchly refused to use AI translators. Called them “the death of human skill.”

He managed to get tickets, and with them rented hard hats, rubber boots, and flashlights. A park staff member led Them to a large sign with a map of the cave labeled in Japanese and did his best to explain.

“One kilometer, it’s so easy. Lots of lights and smooth path. Eto ne… There’s water, so you need boots. Also, drips. But no problem. Then, you can explore! No more paths, and it’s dark, OK? So use flashlights. And here,” he pointed at a section just past the halfway point. “Low. Very low.” He bent over nearly double. “Like this. Ten meters.” He stood up and pointed at the helmets. “Don’t take off the helmets, OK? Very low.”

OK, They both said.

“And very important!” He pointed at a pool of water at a bend in the path. “Here, this is deep! Very deep! Be careful, OK?”

They changed into the boots and as They stored Their shoes in lockers, She muttered to Him, “So, you’re taking me into a pitch black, unpaved cave with a bottomless pit inside, but it’s all in good fun, right?”

He snorted.

They followed the concrete path in. It ran alongside a small stream that flowed past quickly, singing over the rocks as it carried water from beneath the mountain out into the world.

The path went around a bulging rock wall and the cave mouth came into view. It was larger than She’d imagined, a maw towering over their heads, wide enough to drive into. There was an iron gate, lockable but wide open now. She stopped and held up her phone to take a picture. He held back to let Her.

To the right of the gate, hidden in heavy shadow, was a temple. Or was it a shrine? She wasn’t totally clear on the difference. There was a scarlet gate, which She associated with shrines, but beyond it was a small shelter over a seated figure, its hands folded, which looked more like the statues They’d seen at Buddhist temples.

They stopped and dropped some coins in the box in front of it and self-consciously folded Their own hands. More in respect than prayer. Faith was not something They thought about much.

Then they stepped into the tall, narrow mouth.

Inside was surprising. There were lights to the side and above. It was not at all dark, but dim, somehow. They turned on their flashlights, which served little purpose except to make them feel like they were somehow in control of the light.

A picture taken from a raised area inside a cave, showing a winding concrete walkway lined with lights.

Their empty hands found each other.

“It’s so big in here,” She said. There was no sense of confinement. No hint at the massive weight of the mountain suspended over Them.

The ceiling vaulted yards above Their heads, and the walls faded into the gloom on either side, visible only in spots where lights illuminated particularly unusual formations and signs they mostly could not read. The concrete path followed a stream flowing from the depths beyond, carving a narrow channel down the center of the space.

They walked slowly. He said, “I wonder if people ever lived in here during all the thousands of years this area has been inhabited.”

“They must have, right?” She said. “It’s accessible. There’s water. It’s cool in summer and warm in winter. Shelter and water, that’s half of what you need to survive”

“The website said some famous general hid out here after he lost a battle once. Like, a thousand years ago or something.”

She nodded. “So people knew about it.”

“Yeah. So, surely someone lived here at some point. It isn’t hidden or anything. But then, it goes on for miles. Who knows, maybe the dark was too scary. Or something bad was back there.”

“Oh, God, don’t say that,” She half laughed.

They walked on in silence for a moment, savoring the coolness after the suffocating heat outside. She stared up, shining Her light onto a patch of dark on the roof that resolved itself into a writhing mass of bats.

“Maybe they ate bats,” She said.

“Why would they eat bats?”

“No crops in here. No fish, either, the stream’s too shallow.”

He grunted, walked in silent thought for a while. Finally, He said, “Well, maybe they stayed near the front and just gathered what they needed nearby. Until farming came. All those rocks outside, it probably made more sense to move to more open ground.”

“When was that?” She asked.

“Maybe 2,000 years ago? I think rice farming is how the Yayoi period started. Then you started to get larger communities.”

“And then came cities. And work and traffic and pollution and all that garbage, so they made this a national park to keep it clean.”

He gave a single, loud laugh. “Long story short. But yeah, I guess agriculture really is the root of all evils. I mean, hunting and gathering was a tough life, it wasn’t like farming solved everything. You went from natural population control to artificial, for one thing.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Well, we studied it in my anthropology course last year. Like, hunter gatherer societies had to work hard to survive, but that also limited how big any band could grow on its own. It was kind of a natural process. When things got hard, people just died. But farming gives people a bit more leeway. More food, stable homes, bigger families, division of labour. More complexity, more social pressure. Until a bad harvest comes. And then all those people you could support with your crops are suddenly fucked.”

“So, what does that have to do with population control? Did they, just, let people starve, then?”

“Oh,” His mouth snapped shut, as if in realization of exactly where this conversation was leading. “Um. It’s not important.”

“No, no, you brought it up. Now you have to explain.”

“Well, my professor said that lots and lots of agricultural societies ended up with some kind of socially sanctioned process of population control. To eliminate drains on resources when things got tight.”

He stopped. She waited. Her expression was hard.

“Basically, it means that people who couldn’t help provide food or labor or whatever were deemed a burden. So, they were… Forced out of the group.”

“And cutting them out of the group meant letting them die. So, old people were exiled, or something?”

“Yeah, and other people who couldn’t work.”

“Other…” She stopped walking. Her face went rigid. “Like babies, you’re saying. They killed babies.”

He had stopped with her. “Hey, I’m sorry. I was just…”

“No. That’s not… I mean, you’re not making this up, right? It happened?”

He paused. Took a deep breath.

“Well, yeah. I guess you’ve probably heard of it in Sparta, right? How they would apparently leave old people and unhealthy or unwanted babies on the hills. Exposed. Left them to die, basically.”

“And what about in other places?”

“Lots of places did it. At some point, to some extent, I guess it happened almost everywhere.”

The silence that followed His quiet admission lingered too long.

“Did they do it in Japan?”

He slid his arms around Her and rested His chin on Her head.

“Yeah. It was in this book I read. I guess in some places, they did it until pretty recently. They called it mabiki. It means pruning. Weeding a garden.”

“Fuck,” She breathed out.

“Sorry.”

“It’s not you. It’s this fucking world.”

“I know.”

They stood like that for a moment. She put Her arms around Him as well. Then, as if by a silent signal, They parted. Their hands found each other again, and They walked on together.

The air was cool, but heavy. More than humid, it was damp. Water dripped from the ceiling, from countless stalactites large and small, teeth growing slowly closed. The stream continued beside them. No longer running through a deep bed but now closer. He stopped. Let go of Her hand. Crouched beside the water and reached down.

“It’s so cold,” He said.

“I bet,” She said. “It hasn’t seen the sun in forever.”

She watched him staring at the water for a moment.

He said, not looking up from the water, “Are you really OK?” He did not need to specify what He meant.

“Yeah. Of course. Not like I’m going to start throwing up at the drop of a hat or anything. It’s still early.”

“That’s not it. I mean, it is. But… Do you know what you want to do?”

She didn’t answer. Didn’t know how to answer.

He stood. “I’m sorry. I just keep thinking.”

“Don’t be sorry. We have to think about it. But not right now. Let’s just keep going. OK?” She held out a hand.

He smiled. Took it.

“OK.”

They walked on. They admired limestone formations older than any human nation. Glittering deposits of crystal. Tiny patches of plant life huddled around spotlights. There were signs, too, mostly untranslated but with the occasional English name. Persimmon Boulder. The Stone Ship.

The ceiling came lower. The walls closed in. And They came to a much larger sign.

End of Tourist Course.

Beyond was pitch black. Their flashlights showed how the ceiling descended further. Just beyond the sign, it came down until only about three feet remained between it and the rocky ground. There was a slight raised arch above the stream, as if centuries of floods had carved an opening, but They would have to bend over double, almost crawling, to get through.

They stared at it for a moment. He said, “That really is narrow.”

“But it’s just a little ways, right?” She asked.

“That’s what the guy said. Just a few seconds. What do you think?”

“We’re here. Let’s go for it.”

“You sure?” He asked again. He kept asking and asking, and it was starting to grate.

She just sighed and stepped off the walkway and onto the jumble of smooth rocks that covered the cave floor.

He followed.

They passed through the low spot and, just as the staff member had said, it was over.

On the other side, the cave opened up into unfathomable darkness. Their flashlights danced through the black, picking out rocks glittering with crystal deposits and walls dotted with the fossils of unidentifiable sea creatures.

He turned around to look back the way they came, gasped. “Look behind us,” He almost whispered.

She turned as well. His light was on the slope of the roof as it neared the floor. The pale limestone was pockmarked and studded with accretions, but smooth spaces here and there were marked with black lines. writing.

It looked like charcoal, mostly, in different hands and layered in places, dark and smudged in spots, but the characters were clear to see. She knew no Japanese and there was no reception in the cave, so Google would be no help.

He stepped close and tried to decipher what he could.

“This looks like someone’s name. Tanimoto? And overe here is a date…” He fell into thought. “Taisho nine. That’s one of those imperial dates. I think in the nineteen twenties?”

A picture of a rock wall. Japanese characters are written in black.

“So this graffiti has been here for over a hundred years.”

“Some of it, yeah. No weather down here. Nothing to wash the marks away.”

“Jesus.”

“Yeah,” He agreed.

They stood looking over the wall of notes for a few moments more.

Finally, She turned back to the dark and said, “Let’s see what else is here.”

He followed.

The footing underneath was difficult. Rocks rolled and slipped beneath Their feet, and in places they had to climb over larger boulders. They helped each other through the difficult spots.

The cave curved, so that despite the size of the cave, it felt like They were walking in a room that moved with Them, opening in front and closing behind.

They both felt increasingly removed from the world. They were wrapped in the dark, in the cool, in the pale, rocky bones of the earth.

“Oh, hey,” She said. “There’s that pool the guy warned us about.”

“It is deep, very deep!” He laughed. He stepped to the rim of the pool.

“Be careful,” She said. She was worried. More and more worried every day, lately, about Him and Her and whatever might lay ahead.

He stood by the water and shone his light into it. The water should have been crystal clear, but even with the light it only showed them blackness, unbroken past the rough rock walls at the rim.

“I wonder how deep it really is?” He mused.

“Deep enough,” She said.

He dug in His pockets and pulled out a coin, silver, one of those fifty yen ones with a hole in it. “Make a wish,” He said, and tossed it. She watched the silvery reflection flicker as it plummeted into the void. It took far too long to go out of sight. She looked up and saw He had his eyes closed. Then, They opened.

“What’d you wish for?” She whispered. For some reason, Her heart was pounding, Her pulse loud in her ears.

He didn’t answer, just stared into the darkness.

Then, He looked at her and smiled wanly. “If I tell you, it won’t come true.”

“Right.”

They turned and walked further into the darkness, leaving behind the void under the water for one under the stone.

They played their lights over the walls.

“Hey, you know what?” He asked.

“What?” She asked.

“We should turn the lights off. Just for a minute.”

She couldn’t answer right away. She didn’t want her voice to betray the spike of panic that the thought sent shooting through her.

“I mean, I don’t know if we’ll ever be able to experience this kind of dark again. Utter, empty blackness like this. Just for a count of five.”

“Um. Yeah. But hold my hand?”

“Of course.”

He took the proffered hand in His.

“Turn your flashlight off, and I’ll turn mine off on a count of three. Then I’ll just keep it off for a count of five. OK?”

“OK.”

She slid the flashlight switch, and the dark squeezed in.

“Right. Here I go. One, two, three.” His light went off and they were wrapped in a darkness so profound it seemed to absorb even sound.

He began to count again. “One. Two. Three. Four—” but before the final number passed His lips, the whole world seemed to jump sideways.

Booming noise filled the space around them. The floor leaped beneath Them.

They clutched each other to keep from falling to the ground. The shaking ended almost instantly, though, and the thunderous echoes faded.

Her flashlight came on. He had dropped His, but They found it at Their feet.

“What the fuck was that?” She asked. “It had to be an earthquake, right? We have to get out of here.”

He did not argue, just took Her hand and pulled Her back the way They had come.

It was a struggle to rush over the jumbled rock of the floor, made no easier by the fear, but They avoided injury.

Then They reached the narrow gap giving entrance to this part of the cave and stopped. Had to stop.

“Fuck,” He said. He sank to his knees.

She said nothing, only panted breathlessly.

A section of rock along the downward slope of the roof on this side of the gap had sheared off like a giant slab of quarried stone and now closed the path completely, wall to wall. It hung out over the stream, leaving it free to run down its rocky bed. She went over and crouched there, but the water itself was only a few inches deep, too shallow to pass through.

He moaned, then, and She knew He was on the verge of losing grip.

“It’s OK. It’ll be OK, I mean. They know we’re here. And it’s Japan. They’re, like, the best in the world at earthquake rescue stuff, right?” She said, soothingly. Trying to convince Herself as much as Him.

He stood up. He didn’t look at Her. Only nodded.

“Yeah. They are. Right.”

He turned and even in the white LED glow She could see how pale He was. How tight the lines in His face.

She took His hand.

He closed His eyes. Took a deep breath. Let it out slowly. “So, let’s… Let’s think. For now, we need to be ready to be stuck here for a while. So, um. Let’s only use one flashlight at a time to conserve batteries. Turn our phones off, too. If the flashlights go dead, we can switch to phone lights. I have a battery pack, so we should have light for…A while, I guess. Not sure. Um. Food. I’ve got some nuts and stuff in my bag. You have anything?”

“I have a box of protein bars. I think there are four left,” She said.

“We can hold off the hunger pangs for a little while, then, until they can get us out. Water,” He looked at the stream, “we have. I imagine it’s clean enough. Cave spring water and all.”

She forced herself to smile. “Desperate times.”

He laughed. It was also forced.

“So, let’s see if we can at least make a smooth place to sit down for a minute.” She turned off Her flashlight as He took charge.

He looked around. The single flashlight held back the dark for a few yards. Enough to get a sense of the ground. He took a couple of steps, and She followed to stay as close to the light as possible.

“What’s that?”

He pointed into the darkness at the far side of the cave. There was a spill of blocky stones spreading away from a patch of deeper darkness on the wall. He turned His flashlight toward it, and They saw there was a gap in the wall.

“That wasn’t on the map that guy showed us,” She said. There had been a few small openings off the main path of the cave, but they were blocked by gates and stark warnings. This one was not.

“I don’t think it was there before,” he said. “Was it?”

She shrugged in the dark. “I didn’t see it, at least.”

“No, look,” He walked over to the rocks at the base of the opening. “These rocks weren’t here. They must have fallen out. Look, they’re shaped different.”

He picked one up, struggling to hold it in one hand. It was large. Heavy. And unusually regular.

“They’re shaped. Worked by hand into blocks. Like bricks, almost. Except for one side, which is rough like the walls.”

She joined him and looked as He played His light over the rock in His hands. He was right.

They inspected the opening. It was obvious, now, how the rocks had been fitted into the space to block it. The outside facing parts had matched the natural stone of the wall. The gloom must have helped hide this one patch of worked stones. But now, the shaking had dislodged them.

“And look, there’s water flowing here. I bet all that rain the other day had something to do with it, too.”

“Do you think it might be a way out?” She asked, trying not to sound hopeful.

“Probably not, no,” He answered, “But…” He held a hand into the opening. “I think I feel a breeze. It might not be a way out, but there could be an opening. Maybe enough for a phone signal or something.”

He looked at Her, almost pleading. She nodded. “Why not? Give us something to do, at least.”

They went inside. The gap was wide enough to walk through, though it led into unknown darkness. The bottom was, if anything, smoother than the cave They had already walked, though caked in mud and detritus. There had to be an opening to let so much debris inside.

As They got deeper, the movement of air became more evident. Not quite a breeze, more the gentle breath of the cave, but it was undeniable. And warmer.

The dark tunnel also seemed to be growing wider.

Soon, They noticed an unmistakable glow in the dimness. There was light ahead.

Their movement quickened. Neither said a word, but the slim possibility of escape spurred Them on.

Then, a turn in the tunnel took Them out into an open space as large as a house.

Above Their heads, a narrow slit showed a sliver of blue sky, letting in light that set Them blinking after so long in the dark.

“What the hell…” He said. As Her eyes adjusted, She knew immediately what He meant.

The space was roughly circular. The walls were hidden in shadow, while the center was illuminated by the patch of sky almost as if by a spotlight. Beneath it was a pile of filthy rubbish. A few straggly weeds poked out, encrusted in a thin layer of dried mud. The walls also had a layer of mud reaching up to about knee height. The room must have flooded recently.

They walked slowly in. The excitement inspired by the hope of escape had faded in the light of this bizarre room.

She reached the center and kicked at the weed-entangled mass on the floor.

“There’s stuff in here. A bunch of… What are these? Boards?”

She bent down and rummaged through the mess. She stood up, holding a wooden board about the size of her hand. It was shaped like a rectangle with one rounded side, a hole in that side.

“This is one of those plaques, isn’t it? Like we saw at the shrine in Nara.”

“Yeah, it looks like it. An ema. A prayer tablet.”

The ema was warped and swollen with water damage. She futilely wiped at the face of it, trying to reveal any writing.

He knelt and began digging around.

“Here’s another one. There’s tons. What the hell?”

She tossed the ema aside and looked around the room some more.

He turned back to the hole in the roof. It was much too high to reach, but He held His phone up toward it, vainly seeking a signal.

“Hey,” She said. He didn’t respond. “Hey!”

He finally turned toward Her. The gloom hid His expression.

“Sorry,” He said. “I feel like I should be able to get some bars or something…”

“Let’s get out of here. Back to the main cave. This place is creepy.”

“Hold on, though. There’s a little light here. And maybe we can send a signal out.”

“A signal? Like, what, wave a flag? They know we’re here. Or, they think we’re in the main cave. Which is where we should be in case anyone does get through the…” She trailed off. She didn’t want to say the words “cave in,” as true as they were. It was too much. Too real. Too weighted with fear and death.

“Right, you’re right, sorry. But just… Just one more minute, OK? Maybe…” He trailed off, waving His phone again. She realized this was His way of keeping hold on fear, keep it from running wild. She could handle another minute. Or two.

She crouched down again and hugged Her knees. Her eyes fell on the muddy mess sprawling across the floor of the cave.

She noticed an ema that was less faded and distorted than others. She used another to scrape the mud off its surface, revealing a drawing and writing. The drawing was crude, done in what looked like marker. It showed a stick figure dressed in a skirt suit. There was something around its neck that, after some thinking, She decided looked like the neckerchiefs She had seen on schoolgirls in the cities.

She sat contemplating it, wondering about its journey to this place, until He finally stepped close and crouched beside her.

“I guess it’s no good. Sorry,” He said. His voice sounded defeated.

“No. You were right to try. But look at this,” She said. She hoped His own curiosity was as strong as Hers, could give Them both something else to focus on for a moment.

He picked up the ema and shined His light on it.

“Can you read it?” She asked.

“A bit, I guess. Let’s see.”

He pointed at the first row of characters.

“This says Kumasaki High School, Third Year, Second Class.”

His finger moved slowly as he stumbled over the words. “This looks like a name. Kunimoto… Ummm.. Emi? Maybe? Names are hard.”

His finger moved to the bottom row.

“Oh. Oh wow. This says…” He paused and stared for a moment. “It says ‘I’d like her to die.’ In, like, a very polite way. Holy shit.”

“Wait, someone used some kind of sacred shrine tablet to wish for someone to die? Some high school kid?”

“Um. I guess.”

They both looked down at the scattered and piled debris below them. Other boards shone through gaps in the mud.

He pulled another one and cleared the mud.

It had more writing, but no picture. There was a short sentence and then what even she could see was the same word repeated over and over, filling the face.

“’Takeda Jun in Tsuga District, U— City. Die die die’ … It just says ‘die’ over and over and over..”

“Do you think they’re all like that?”

“I don’t know. Do we want to know?”

They did, of course. There was fear and panic over Their own plight howling just behind a barely maintained veil of calm. The morbid curiosity helped turn Their minds from the emotional free fall.

They searched for more readable ema. They found a few, though most were illegible. All bore similar messages. A name, some identifying information, and a wish for death or, sometimes, only illness or pain.

There were too many to be an accident. “People have been dropping these in here on purpose, haven’t they?” She said.

Yeah, I guess so. And… For so long. Some of these are actually rotting away. It takes a long time for lacquered wood to rot…”

The eeriness of the plaques was too much for her to bear any longer. She stood straight, kneading tightened Her lower back.

She looked around and began to wonder about the areas still hidden in shadow. She turned Her flashlight to the left and saw a statue set into an alcove.

“Hey, what’s that,” She said.

He looked up from the mass of tablets, blinking in confusion, then noticed the circle of light.

“Oh, wow. That looks like a jizo. The little statues we keep seeing along the roads.”

They went closer to the statue. It wasn’t very weathered, likely because there was so little weather that could reach in here, but it was streaked with an uneven mineral crust from water running down the wall at its back. Limestone, like the formations in the main cave.

“It must have been here for years. Centuries, maybe? How long does it take to grow a deposit like that?” She asked.

“I don’t know.”

“And is it really the same statue? It looks different. Not as cute.”

The other jizo They’d seen tended toward short, squat, and round-headed. He had told Her on first seeing one that they were often associated with children, and people put them up both to pray for safety and to mourn loss. Which was why they were often alongside roads, a frequent focus for both needs.

This one was not like those. The figure was seated. And thin. Its hands were not folded. The statue’s right hand was held upright by its chest, like one half of praying hands. Its left arm was crooked at one side, as if to cradle something, but empty. The head was bowed, eyes looking downward. She followed its gaze and saw a stone lump poking out of a mound of mud at the statue’s base. She used one foot to push aside the mud and realized it was a stone child lying at its feet. It hadn’t fallen, though, it was carved there. She looked back up at the statue’s empty arm, and now realized that it angled slightly downward, the hand lowered on its wrist. As if reaching for the child. Or as if just having dropped it…

“Fuck,” she breathed. A chill ran down her spine.

The statue disturbed Her, for a reason She didn’t really understand. She looked away from it, back down at the ground. The mud was piled higher around the statue. She wondered if it hid anything else, so She kicked at a large mass. The top layer fell away and uncovered a clump of ema held together by layers of thick, firm clay. She crouched over them and tugged them apart. As she got deeper, the ema grew increasingly better preserved, as if the clay had kept the worst of water and air from them. He knelt to help, markedly quiet.

“Wait, what is this?” She said. The final ema had come free of the clay with a jerk. It left a depression in the mud, and something was embedded at the bottom, just barely exposed. It was sticklike, white, almost shining through the dark mud. One end had a knobby protrusion.

“That looks like…” She trailed off.

“A bone, yeah. Some kind of animal. Deer, maybe. We know they’re around here.”

“A small deer, though. Maybe a tanuki?”

He poked at the mud around the bone, gingerly, “Hold on…” He said. He scraped at a mass, slowly exposing another patch of white. Rounded. A squiggly crack. An opening, not a break but smooth. Natural.

“Oh.” He said. “Oh no.”

He had unearthed a skull, smaller than His fist, delicate and rounded. It was not a tanuki, nor a deer, nor a monkey.

She couldn’t speak. Couldn’t breathe. She stood and backed away, clutching Her midsection, the space where, for the last six weeks, new life had been growing.

The air in the cave grew thick, heavy, hard to breathe. The gloom darkened as a cloud or something worse obscured the sun outside.

He looked at the skull, the dead bone that had once been a baby, living, maybe even loved. He looked at the statue, its tilted arm, the baby sprawled at its feet.

The piled ema, bearing decades—perhaps centuries—of dark prayers.

“We…” He tried to speak. Choked. Tried again.

“We have to get out of here.”

He turned toward Her.

She had backed up against the far wall. Her face was stark, eyes staring. Tears streamed down Her cheeks.

He could hear Her strangled breath. See Her pain.

“Hey, let’s go. Let’s just go. OK?”

She nodded.

And then there was a pinging, metallic sound. Something falling onto stone. They both looked around, followed the sound to the jizo statue. A small silver coin with a hole in it lay on its lap.

She moaned. He turned to Her and started to speak, but could not. His eyes widened. They were not looking at Her, but at the wall behind. She turned.

The shadows there, grown heavy as the tiny spot of sunlight faded above, moved. Stretched. Flickered. She jumped away and turned Her flashlight, hoping the shadows would vanish in its light, but instead of fading they… Solidified.

Protrusions erupted from the great mass of shadow. They resolved into clear shapes. Fingers. Arms. Rounded voids like faceless heads. Tiny. Infant sized. The mass writhed and jittered as it moved down the wall to the floor. It seemed to be reaching out for Her in mute need. Hunger. Loneliness.

She backed toward Him, slipping and stumbling over the muddy floor.

And then They both began to hear the sound. A whisper, at first, like the wind in a bamboo forest. It grew slowly, and they recognized it. Keening. Weeping.

The crying of babies.

Dozens. Hundreds. Countless voices, clear but distant, as if heard across a wide river from an unseen shore.

She pressed close to Him, and Her free hand found His. Gripped.

But even amid all the fear, She couldn’t help feeling a wave of pity. So many. So many tiny lives given to the darkness here.

Neither spoke.

The light in the small slit of sky faded further, and as it did the shadows advanced, breaking away from the wall and creeping over the floor.

They did not move like people, like living things. They jerked. Jumped. Juddered like a film pasted together from cutting room floor scraps.

But they moved, nevertheless.

The pair backed away, but then He turned His head to check behind Them. She heard Him moan in despair and knew. They were surrounded.

He tried to say something. Choked. Sobbed. Finally managed to make words.

“I’m sorry,” He said. The words were a whisper, nearer to breath than speech.

“So am I,” She said. He only shook His head in refutation and remorse.

The shadow things closed in. They had nowhere else to go, no room to escape. They squeezed together, sharing what They both knew was the last warmth and life and breath left to Them.

Then.

One shadow reached, stretched, deformed toward Her leg and when it touched Her, She spasmed as if electricity ran through her body. The touch was cold. So cold.

Her hand tightened on His. Fear gave Her strength.

The shadow began to pull, gently at first. Cold fingers plucking at her legs. Her eyes widened and met His, gaping in mute panic, and then countless arms of shadow wrapped around Her leg and pulled. The living darkness was no longer simply void, no mere absence. It was a force. A hunger made solid. And when it pulled Her, She went. She fell to the floor, splattering half-dried mud and tossing clumps of wooden ema. He tried to hold onto Her, tried to keep Her beside him, but Her warm flesh slipped from his fingers and He fell to His knees as She went. She shrieked as the shadow pulled Her across the floor. “No!” She cried out, and His voice joined Hers. “No! Not like this! I didn’t mean like this!” She stared at Him, hands reaching vainly for salvation, and He saw confusion and then realization fill them before She vanished into the hungry, lonely darkness.

He stared at the darker shadows where She once had been and sobbed as He whispered again, “I didn’t mean like this.”

As if awakened by the sound of His voice, the shadows stirred once more. He did not resist when they came.

Zan’E – Thoughts On a Japanese Horror Classic

I’m not sure I’d exactly call this a review, but I read Ono Fuyumi’s Zan’e—the movie version is The Inerasable in English but I’d call it “Tainted” if anyone ever asked me—and I have thoughts.

The Japanese cover to Zan’e.

Here’s a bit of a summary, since I’m sure not that many English speakers have read it.

The story is told in the first person by an unnamed “I” who is ostensibly Ono herself. The narrator is a Kyoto-based horror writer and collector of jitsubanashi kaidan, so-called “true ghost stories.” She puts out calls for readers of her work to send her their stories, and one day she gets a letter from a young woman named Kubo who seems to live in a haunted apartment.

Her story reminds Ono of another she’s heard before. She finds another letter in her records with the same story, essentially, sent in by another reader who lived in the same apartment building as Kubo.

And so begins a long investigation. Kubo and Ono interview other residents of the building and of the neighborhood, going back further and further in history to track the haunting. They slowly unravel a story of a diffuse, metamorphic haunting that covers the block where Kubo lives, but also seems to spread and change. They find terrible mass murders, suicides, and arson linked to it, and realize they themselves might be “infected” because the odd things follow them even when they move to new houses.

Eventually, nearly seven years after Kubo’s first letter, they track the origin of the haunting to a terrible accident at a coal mine almost a hundred years ago, on the other side of Japan.

And that’s it. The great conceit of Zan’e, and one of the reasons it has become so influential in Japanese horror is that from start to finish, it maintains the aura of real people investigating a real “strange story.” There are no great climaxes, no battles with evil, no conclusion, really. They encounter something odd, wonder where it came from, and find out.

And this book has left its fingerprints all over Japanese horror since its 2012 publication. It’s on every “Best of” or “Must Read” horror list I’ve ever seen, and authors and filmmakers alike cite it as an influence.

After reading it, I can see the influence they mean. The figure of the “kaidan collector” has become a standard trope now, with examples to be found in Kamijo Kazuki’s Shinen no Terepasu/The Bright Room, Niina Satoshi’s Sorazakana/Fish Story, and many more. The concept of “haunting as infection” is not original to Zan’e, but the evolution of that haunting from a lingering form of resentment or anger a la Sadako in Ring into essentially a mindless natural phenomenon reached its zenith here.

And then there is semi-documentary approach, without any reliance on fiction elements like plot, arc, denouement, etc. It’s just a flat record of events, some of which are really creepy or disturbing but are mostly just… Stuff happening. That has been enormously influential in the “fake documentary” style of horror that is so popular right now. Sesuji, of Kinkichiho no Are Basho ni Tsuite fame, has cited it as an influence for that reason.

For fans, it has earned a reputation as one of the most frightening horror books in the Japanese language. And I get it! At its core, what Zan’e presents is a cosmology that truly is terrifying.

The basic idea is based in the Japanese spiritual concept of kegare. Kegare is a taint, a metaphysical stain that gets on people who come into contact with things considered unclean: death, blood, rot, filth, and (in the dreadfully misogynistic ways of olden days) things involved with being a woman like menstruation and childbirth.

Zan’e takes up kegare based on the very traditional idea that a place where people die is stained by that death. Usually that stain fades naturally, but in her book Ono speculates that perhaps, if more death happens there before it fades, the stain is intensified, and so a cycle can begin. Couple that with the idea that people who simply go that tainted place—simply be present—then become carriers of the kegare, and you begin to see the danger.

Then, she postulates that the very intense kegare may carry echoes of the death, or the deceased’s state of mind at the time. Their misery, or anger, or pain. The stain whispers, it weeps, the sound of a suicide’s belt dragging over the floor lives on in the stain. What if some people are more susceptible to the influence of the kegare than others? The sounds and visions of shadowy figures truly disturb them, the voices whispering in their ears successfully convince them to kill others and themselves… Won’t that create a new, stronger stain? And on and on, ad infinitum…

This is the terrifying heart of Zan’e that made one award judge say “I don’t even want to put this book on my shelf.”

But. With all that said, I don’t know that I would recommend this book to anyone except horror completist nerds (like me). Because this book is dull. Deadly, painfully dull. Which could well be the intention, given the dedication to the realistic style. Anyone who has ever interviewed members of the public knows that most people just aren’t good at telling stories. They meander, they repeat themselves, they get confused. And given that much of this book is a documentary-style record of just such interviews, you get all of that.

There is, for example, a twenty page chapter that is just one elderly neighbor of Kubo’s talking about all the many people who have moved in and moved out, the buildings that have gone up and come down, the changes over the years… You know, old people stuff. Within that twenty pages are roughly two paragraphs that actually pertain to events of interest. The rest is simply there to add weight to the idea that some houses in this neighborhood just don’t get lived in long. Which isn’t all that interesting a point.

I would say that basically nothing interesting as such happens for over half of the book. It’s all just talking, with hints of the taint scattered through to keep the monologues relevant to the story. So. Dull.

I had to force myself to finish Zan’e. I only did it because I want to better understand modern Japanese horror, and it’s such an influential book that I felt it necessary. But God, it took me forever.

The movie is pretty good, though.

A Tale of Two Horror Movies

Much like (from what I hear) the English speaking world, Japan is having a bit of a horror “moment.” In print and on the screen, what has always been a pretty solid side-branch of the entertainment mix has begun to blossom into something bigger and more mainstream. We can point to new authors like Uketsu or Nashi, and older ones bringing out new work like Koji Suzuki’s new novel Ubiquitous, as signifiers in the publishing world. On screens, though, I think the most interesting examples are to be found in shorts, like the YouTube creepfest My house walk-through or (hands down my favorite horror shorts) Fake Documentary Q.

I am not a scholar of the cinema or Japanese horror or anything, but I do keep my eyes open, and I stumbled on a collection of horror shorts on Amazon that were apparently all entrants in a biennial competition sponsored by Kadokawa, the Japan Horror Film Competition. I watched, and there were some real bangers in there, including one called みなに幸あれ/Best Wishes to All. Lo and behold, I later saw a full feature length version with the same name—Ah! I realized. The winner of that competition got their short made into a full-length feature film!

And it was well worth doing. Best Wishes to All—which apparently now has an English release—was a creepy, surreal, original, and ambitious movie. Excellent acting, excellent screenplay, the whole shebang. It also presented an approach to horror that stood outside the usual ghosts and curses of “J-horror” with the kind of social edge that makes good horror great.

The story, essentially, is about a young nurse in Tokyo going home to visit her grandparents in the countryside and discovering a dark secret–one that redefines her entire understanding of life and the world. It also touches on how Japan’s young people are almost seen as fodder for older generations’ expanding lifespans, and the sacrifices of some that society demands for happiness for others. And also, it has old people acting like pigs. Pretty wild.

And when I saw that the second contest collection was out, *and* that the winner movie was also coming, I was hopeful indeed! Shorts were clearly fertile ground for original horror, and Kadokawa et al. were throwing money at it, so I was eager for more. The winner of that round, and the film that came from it, was ミッシング・チャイルド・ヴィデオテープ/Missing Child Videotape.

I think I’m not alone in the eagerness I felt for this one. It seemed to combine some of the same ambition and originality that BWtA had with beloved tropes of cursed videos, haunted mountainsides, and family trauma. The short was a quiet, brooding story with a hefty dose of chilling menace.

The feature film, though… Well, that was something else. I should say here that, while I’m not planning to out-and-out spoil the story, I will be looking at elements that might end up ruining the movie for you. So, if you are hoping to watch Missing Child Videotape—or Best Wishes to All, for that matter—save this to read for later. And watch the latter IMMEDIATELY.

So. Just like the short, Missing Child Videotape is about two young friends, Keita (Kyosuke in the shot) and Tsukasa (Hiromu in the short). Keita gets a package from home which includes a VCR tape. It is one he made as a child, when out playing with his younger brother. The two boys stumble on some vaguely industrial looking abandoned building and play hide-and-seek. The younger brother goes to hide, despite his fear, and is never seen again. The child is, well, missing.

Tsukasa is apparently a “spiritual sensitive” and can see ghosts. He reacts strongly to the tape… Oh! It must be cursed.

Soon after, the film truly diverges from the short. They both deal with the emotional trauma of a lost child and brother, but while the short is all about suggestion and menace and dread, the film veers toward folk horror and weird mountain towns and a reporter running from ghosts… With a dose of time loops and places that don’t exist… Well. Lots of stuff. It never goes wacky with it. It always maintains its slow, heavy, almost emotionless tone. But honestly, from a purely plot-based perspective, it shares more with Shiraishi’s Senritsu Kaiki File Kowasugi! series than with its spiritual companion, Best Wishes to All.

Let’s just say, I have problems with the movie version of MCV. It tries to be too many things and fails at most of them. It takes the “unexplained” much too far, such that it becomes almost nonsensical. Individual elements are fascinating and worth exploring, but they are left behind to fade into background noise, and rather than leaving the fear of the unknown, they left me with the dissatisfaction of the seemingly unconnected. I mean, there was this whole story about how the mountain was a garbage heap for kami that basically went unmentioned for the rest of the movie?! Come on! And the reporter was running from some kind of ghost. Why? Who is she, actually? What is she muttering under her breath when she’s scared? Why is she essentially set dressing most of the time?

I can only assume that the demands of turning a twenty-minute short into a 100-minute feature put too much pressure on the story, and the production team struggled to find effective filler. So, the end result feels like they just started throwing things at it to see what stuck.

Meanwhile, Best Wishes to All seems to avoid that pitfall by taking some of the surreality of the short and leaning into it. Even as it sometimes borders on the absurd, it’s an absurdity that remains rooted in the qualities that made the short work so well, creating a kind of incomprehensible view of reality that is as confounding for the protagonist as for the audience. In expanding the short, the filmmakers preserved its essential nature, just writ large.

Anyway, what does all this signify? I think what I’m getting at is, the value of the horror short today is clearly difficult to translate to long form media, but not impossibly so. I just hope that the pressures of making bigger budget, larger-scale works don’t harm get in the way of the vibrance of the smaller scale scene.